Life Blood

Hey guys I haven't been talking on her much but I thought maybe I should today. If you read and you see. I am in the Begin Transmission contest. I'm honestly more scared then not. I know I say I would be happy for all who win, which I would but... This band has been my life blood for almost 8 years now. I remember the first video by them I saw in the old VANS skatepark in the Moorestown Mall like it was yesterday. Or the first time Brian played them for me. When I thougth him putting morning star in his sig on his emails was his way of saying I Love You too April. Then the fights we had about them in the WAWA when STS came out. I know this band links back to him alot and now that I see him more like a brother, an estranged one at that... I Just... God... It would mean more to meet them at this length and to put my voice with theirs outside of a concert setting. Even more now that I can take my Kup with me if I do win. I think its what I want most is to be able to get Desi on a plane out their with me. Almost like saying thank you for her friendship for being their for me when no one else has. I'm just really scared that I might not win. The comp. is really tight and there are so many amazing videos and so many amazing fans. I wish everyone luck. I really do. But... I'm also kinda selfish and I want to win. Hell if I do It will give me a reason to bake again. Since Smith would be coming to get us. I honestly think I would burst into tears if that happened.

I guess I needed to get that out there....

<3
Ebon