I'm Starting To Think

That I'm wishy washy....


I know what I want. I want out of NJ and to be in California. How to get there on a cashier's buget?

you really can't. Your always a slave to someone at that point.

How to not be a slave. well school didn't work out for me. So?

Plan B:

Adult enrichment courses. In... Sewing and Patern Making. I realized I like computers I like what they do an all... But I need to actaully work with my hands to be happy. Possably even start singing again? Yes for all of you who don't know (all three readers...) I can sing. Am I great.... no. But alot of people told me at my old job I should try out for idol. I don't think I'm anywere near that good. But a nice little horror punk psychobilly band would be fun. I really think that is where i'm drawn. I love music. Love going to concerts. But I miss horror punk and the things of my youth that helped shape me. I don't think I've grown past that. I'm just in a more mature form. And realizing I can D.I.Y almost anything. I just need a machien and sewing corses.

Also.... I want my Hearse still. I really do. I want a nice either black (standard) or lime green one(more classic) and I want to ave speical curtains i make in it ( lime green lepord? or striped) and if all goes well I might get me one.

- April